Sunday, February 27, 2005

thinking

does fish really have feeling? does it have brain? does it think?? if they don't...some times..I want to be like them... I don't want to think, I don't want to feel....happiness is a very great feeling...in all aspects...but saddness is a really really bad feeling....lonelines...homesick...empty mind, empty heart..empty inside...what do I need? where am I going? I want to go home..but where is my home?? is it really the ocean? my final destination? too many questions...what is the correct answer for it??

Monday, February 14, 2005

Happy Valentines

Another V-Day, oh God! don't even remember my other V-days how was it...hehe!!! It never happened anything ever...only remember once went out to sell roses on the street...haha!! that was fun thou...probably that was the only time when I got flowers for the valentines..from myself...sucks..no?

This year, nothing special. Have someone that I like, but since we are together for short time, I only gave him a card...and he said "Happy Valentines!" to me...although I didn't get anything from him, but by the time he said it to me, I was still so happy to hear. Although I wanted to spend the night with him, but he had to do his work, for some ppl that is not acceptable, but for me, it's ok, he has to do his work...I can be the second priority...haha!! as long as he has me in his mind...

I feel so be loved when I am with him, it's just like the begainning of every sigle love time. Some times, love can make your day, but it also can turn it down. Listening to my friend's stories, I can't even believe that I am a such subjective lover. Although the reality comes to play his roll in a near or far way, I can't put it as my first consideration...I am still dreaming about the fantasy of love, the magic that makes you alive, the unrealistic unconditional give....maybe I sounds stupid, maybe I am silly...but I believe and I will continue to believe... someday I will be happily living with the one who I love in this planet..

Thursday, February 10, 2005

No matter what happens, life is still so interesting...

Happy New Year for all my people. This is my year..hehe!! hope everything will be fine, and hope can see my mom and dad, and my brother by this year...Actually, I wanted to have my birthday celebrated in China, with my old friends who I miss a lot too, but since I have a new family here...I really want to have a great time with them too..hehe!! Really hope I can have a double..haha!!!That will be great...

Oh well, just read a book, "Voltaire Candide", the story is very complecated, but the characters will always meet each other no matter what part of the world they are...that is the destiny, and that is the province...someone that I always see in see school, after 1 year, we finally got the chance to talk to each other...by the time we communicating, it feels like we have so many things that we want to say from so far ago...hehe..but just no one said it before...This encounter really seems like movie, maybe it's because it's valentine's period or something else, it seems so romantic..^^...I am just happy...